åileen: i think i suck in cello
teacher: don't say that
åileen: i think so
cher: thats what everybody thinks
cher: there is no way our playing be as good as we want it to be
cher: it is already a good thing that you know you are not perfect
cher: it is those who do not know that are screwed
åileen: thanks~
cher: dont push yourself too hard
cher: its not going to help if you do
åileen: true...
åileen: but i am still frustrated man...
cher: yea
cher: it happens to all musicians
cher: if you're not, then something's wrong
cher:haha
cher: but seriously
cher: you need time
cher: so dont push it
åileen: i think i already had a lot of time...
åileen: erm... it's probably due to lack of practice
cher: lol
cher: then you will have to act on it then

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Oh well...

Orchestra will be performing on 12-13 July. This time round I'm not so sure about myself. Judging from the way I played last rehearsal, it was horrible.

To the max...

I can't count dotted rhythm while playing. And that song is so full of it... And the fingerings are so out of my 'comfort zone'... And my posture still needs improvement...

The list goes on...

At least my intonation has improved a little... But that's probably all.

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Sorry to all for being emo after rehearsals sometimes, it's just me feeling frustrated at myself for not playing well enough.

It's mentally/emotionally/physically challenging being a musician...

But then again, the reward of playing music makes it all worthwhile.

Ok I must do some serious practise now... I MUST I MUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!